Hence the glowering predatory tiger of paradoxical Blakean notoriety....geez, why am I being so defensive all of a sudden?
No, seriously...I glanced over my LJ profile page and it is way too scattershot and blatantly defensive itself to be accurate for my purposes at the moment - not to mention which, it denies me the pleasure of letting people find out firsthand what a bad idea it is to give me shite on my home turf. I miss those tiffs, I really do.....>:)
Also, I think I need to be a bit more precise about my whole artistic shebang, as it is going to be coming out more pointedly in the months to come. I operate in multiple artistic areas including singing/songwriting, acting & high-level online roleplaying, poetry, fiction, theatrical design and any/all visual arts whose supplies I can easily lay hands on, and this ties in a vast watershed of ideas....much of which are quite flagrantly psychological if there's any personification in them atall. And if you value the flagrantly psychological in what I've been throwing out intermittently here, then I'd certainly like to hear what you think of things, either here or in my more-private portfolio group on Yahell, or in any of my other online areas that you may have sight of. Every artist wants attention...and to quote Oscar Wilde, of course, the only thing worse than being talked about is not being talked about. So do feel free to speak up when it comes to my creative output - detailed feedback is golden, especially because it means that detailed attention was given. And if I do happen to set a puzzle or a trail of allusionary breadcrumbs out in the path of things or woven into them.......I hope you'll have the intrepitude to try and follow where my thoughts are leading. If not, well...c'est la vie de le monde.
And as for why I'm so all over the place and not well settled/established in any one field or discipline...that's something that has plagued my sense of self-security for years and only very recently come clear to me, and it still wants its own manifesto (or at least an apologia) of an entry that isn't a well-tossed word salad of rampant Hamletting about. And that might take some concentration, because my general reaction to having very profound and vividly darkbright thoughts filling my head is to Hamlet as much as possible to avoid saying things out clearly. Cf. geometrical proofs - I do not particularly like showing my work, so anything that I actually take the time to spell out plainly must be very important indeed, for me to assume responsibility for all the labour of communication. To quote the Phantom of the Opera (original novel), "I never express myself like others...I don't do anything like others."
So what do I want from you who happen to read this, on my general access filter or whatever (lack of) confidentiality setting I choose for this? I want a reaction, to be perfectly blunt. I want to hear what you think of the content I've put out so far, if you've noticed it or happen to take an expedition back through my archives, and I want to know what you want to see in more finished form. Of course I'll ginsu any wankers who run supercilious or arrogant or bigoted - but it's my territory, my sovereign rules, as with any online enclave.
And regarding those "piccies" previously suggested....well, that's another entry also, which will try to present at least a few different actual images of me, which I know is a well-nigh (if not totally) unprecedented thing. And there is an anecdote that I will share in full along something like those lines, just because it made me snicker furiously when I read it first and always gives me distinct amusement.
And with that, I bid you good night and leave you to your apprehensive speculations....