...and make people wait in line and jump through flaming hoops before they could get a glimpse of me atall on my personal turf.....


Ah, I'm in one of my "Why am I not more of a social asshole?" moods.......don't ask why unless you're in the 'otherkin' loop, otherwise you'll miss the forest for the strangeness of the trees.

Admittedly, I can easily be more of one -- really, I've been trying already lately. I even warned people about the ginsus in a totally-revised profile-page, just so no one could make the mistake of thinking that I was some mild and milky-winged avatar of never-being-offended by the shite people try to deal me (or others in general) online. You mess with me, you get the blades deployed in your general-or-specific direction...could I be any more clearer with the caveat?

Now. We all know that there are a lot of people out there...and that a lot of those people aren't exactly scrupulous in their dealings with their own minds and memories. I am -- perhaps even too much so, atimes. A lot of people play fast and loose with everything that they know very little about -- I don't. Yet, in no other "culture" on earth or heaven as that which I find mostly ensconced, is a person's entire sanity consistently and perpetually put to question merely on account of peer-pressure and embedded hyper-skepticism. There is a pathology to this "commmunity" -- or at least to a good many of its manifestations on LJ -- to which I do not have any desire to subject myself on a continuing basis, as I find it frustrating, enervating and frankly maddening.

Therefore, I'm not much in a mood to join any further groups, and may even withdraw from the ones that I'm in, where the level of group consensus is marked and bogged down by zealous contrarianism and attempts to always tear down, never dig for supports. Likewise, and as I've probably said before, I've no liking for groups that take everything at face value and challenge nothing, or allow no challenges once a view is spoken, no matter how far-out, half-baked, extreme or offensive. Those groups, and those people, offend ME. They offend my sensibilities as a scrupulously intelligent being who nonetheless knows things that he cannot necessarily prove to any-and-all comers, because there are a lot of people out there who have already chosen their "belief" either way and refuse to be swayed by anything that is not it or does not neatly-validate it. That's their problem, not mine.....why should I even admit their existence in this world, let alone that they have any right to evaluate what they cannot see to disprove it?

The absence of evidence is not the evidence of absence. Refusal (or inability) to observe the evidence does not negate its existence. In the kingdom of the blind, the one-eyed man is adjudged to be suffering from hallucinations -- but does that mean he does not see?

I'm going to be putting a lot more effort into building/growing my own groups and communities, both here and on Yahell, because I do not think that my concept of "anderen" (clustered/interrelated and consciously-purposeful 'otherness') will ever be really respected within the officialdoms of the so-called 'otherkin community' -- even though that is only part of its most-prominent cluster. I have no desire to be constantly arguing for the merely-basic validity of something that needs to be moving beyond the stage of "proposal" and into that of application, exploration and action, particularly with people who have no idea how much of my life has been building into this. If you know me, you know that I have my groups listed right there on the side of my LJ page....if you're interested, check them out. I could use some non-kneejerk types to kick in their thoughts and experience without getting all orthodox-wankerish on me.


That all said and duly thrown out on the winds...I have a few probationers on my flist, and for either lack of personal relevance or lack of activity on their accounts, I shall be deleting them next time I'm on -- I've already gotten rid of a few names that had no activity, no mutual-friending and/or not enough shared interests to fill a thimble. If you think/know that you are in this category and yet want to remain on my flist, post something to make me change my mind. (Admittedly, I hardly ever respond to ultimatums of this sort unless I really really want to retain a contact, so do feel free to ignore me if you actually don't give a damn.)

There. If I think your hangouts are worth it I'll give 'em the time of day.....apart from that, my soul shall tend to be quite selective with its company, on an individual and not established-communal basis -- at least for this slice of cyberlife. And if the mods don't like me not bending to get into their groups and and play nice by their rules, they can all go bugger themselves with fresh-picked pineapples.

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(If you read this and are violently offended, chances are that you're already slated for flist-eviction, if indeed you were ever personally on my flist atall, or ever . Good day.)

I'm trying to decide whether I hate Dragons or not.

No, not the Hollywood-mythical firebreathing type ("I AM the lasht one!!!") and not the symbolic creature of wisdom and occult treasure, and certainly not my own birthsign in the Chinese zodiac...hell, I'm as much a Fire Dragon as they come, people. I mean....the Dragons one may occasionally meet online. You know the type? I've been lambasted by a couple of them over the years, and I'm trying to figure out now whether it was their individual personalities (deceptively easygoing but intolerant of anyone else asserting themselves?) or their "nature" that was to blame. Or just the fact that I haven't an infinite patience for being either left in the lurch or disregarded over simple requests like "Could you stop sending me joke emails/chain emails/etc., I don't find them amusing" -- or "Tell me if you're actually planning to reclaim your original char in this roleplay, 'cause I need to know and I'm the moderator of the damn thing and you've been nowhere around for months on end."

You know, simple things that you'd think I'd have every right to ask without them turning on me personally?

And I am not a person who favours stereotyping people, not even by the names they use themselves, but in this case of pondering I am inclined to wonder whether there is something there, like an ancient node beneath the surface, that just jumps out and crackles whenever you assert that you too deserve to be listened to, and that perhaps there are situations in which others should be more aware that they have to play by your rules -- not the other way around and with them bein' so damn special inside that it assumes that you have nothing, are nothing compared to them. Whether or not they have any way of knowing.

Well, guess what? -- I'm something, and someone, and many things you could never imagine, and you were shit for acting so damn high-and-mighty and superior and mysterious to me, and thinking that I could never understand anything so grand and rare as your draconic minority condition. You failed to give me the due respect and consideration you demanded for yourself -- perhaps there's a basic lack of that sense there, perhaps enough that the clannish and egocentric creatures (I'm sure we can figure out which ones I mean by general type) are fundamentally at odds with those who believe in ideals and fairness and universal principles and highfalutin' crap like that. At least so far as humans go...oh, I forgot -- you don't like that word....


*sigh* What a waste of friendships, or of friendship in general, to have this sort of attitude thrown in one's face and everything else forgotten. I'm in a mood for burning bridges, I suppose, even if not naming names, because I'm not begging anyone back into my life who walked out on me before in a ghastly huff. My life, my terms.....and I'm in a resurgently pissed-enough mood that I'd even make you crawl to get any standing with me now.

DON'T - EVER - PISS - ME - OFF!!! Honestly, how long does it take for people to realize that it's just not a good idea....?

[/rant]
And all for the sake of near-obsessive-compulsive accuracy, tryin' to be spontaneous enough to catch my own conscience......"Tell me, o quiz, what am I really?" -- yeah, like I need to take a quiz to know by now.

So, nothin' wrong with bein' a spiritual type, is there...?


But then on the other hand.....hmm, stripey........:-|

You scored as Otherkin. You are Otherkin. You identify with otherworldy beings and feel you are truly something other than human. You are only biding your time here until you can return to where you truly belong. You seek others who share your yearnings and spend your time commiserating with those you like and mocking the ones you don't.

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Otherkin

100%

Spiritualist

90%

Mystic

80%

Magician

75%

White Lighter

60%

True Alternative

60%

Discordian

55%

Aimless Eclectic

55%

What Subversive Alternative Paradigm Are You?
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Um, yeah.....wrong sex there, not to mention I ain't that much of an other-elitist asshole (wait...am I? :-S...). If "here" means the world of nature and material existence, I'm not too virulently against being here, or into bemoaning that "I just don't belong"......that refers to the typical "mundane" human world/social structure, 'kay? And even so.....well, it's a bit late to be complaining about landing in it again. It's a dirty job, ya know, but someone's gotta do it....:-|

Well, at least I'm mediocre at being a White-Lighter......so much equivocation and "enh" I had on some of these, you'd think I was the cosmic avatar of situational fence-sitting/hair-splitting/etc.


Well....*checks wings*....hmm, well, I am a Libra......:-?


You scored as Spiritualist. You are a Spiritualist. You are most at home in the subtle realms of existence, and since you can't be there all the time, you communicate with spirits regularly to keep at least one foot on higher planes. As you progress, more and more of your interaction is based on planes other than the physical, and while this can draw strange glances from those who overhear, for the most part you are able to blend in and go unnoticed. It's a shame, really, because you have depths therefore unseen by your peers.

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Spiritualist

95%

Otherkin

90%

Mystic

80%

Magician

75%

Discordian

65%

White Lighter

60%

True Alternative

60%

Aimless Eclectic

30%

What Subversive Alternative Paradigm Are You?
created with QuizFarm.com



Heh....you don't say. I can't imagine where I'd have gotten into habits like that.....


[Note: the lower-ranking scores are....well, look, I'm not a practising Discordian (already good enough :P) and I don't consider myself a White-Lighter. And anyone who calls me an Aimless Eclectic is just askin' for trouble. (Besides, it's not aimless anyhow if it happens to fit into my, um, personal history...) I'd probably come up more as a True Alternative if I answered a bit less reservedly about the amount of exegesis and reinterpretation I do with "traditional" material.....but then, does that count as it being a new approach or an old one, then?


Is a puzzlement........:-?

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