Sorry for the late reply--I've been wading through emails lately, as I've a horrible tendency to overcommit to large projects (like trying to run a halfway-plausible Mummy RPG that needs tons of rewrites). I love roleplaying, but other people often seem to think I take it rather too seriously...:-? I'm really sorry and a bit surprised that people would ostracize you from the community, as you're one of the most interesting people I've found there--still trying to parse what internal prejudice was struck on, to get things riled up. Perhaps it's something to do with all the therapists and such on board, and what they accept or won't as being 'authentically' Aspie behaviour?
Incidentally, I'm a bit on the "falling in love" thing too when there's meeting of minds, especially over the things that it's so hard to find consensus on anyhow (seeing as I haven't an advanced college degree/doctorate/anything to 'make' people listen to all these theories of mine), and that meshing and interplay is something I can't get enough of, even though it does heighten the tension when it comes to answering my mail. I have found a mate at long last (that'd be Litharriel), but incidentally we are both open/poly-minded as well, in the 'select circle of intimates' sort of way, body and mind both. So no worries atall on that front.
Hmm....I suppose my way of making things work really hasn't been me 'managing' it so much as slipping under the diagnostical radar until I was well out of highschool/school-"systems" and well-read enough to figure things out for myself...which has been a bit trying emotionally (I understate constantly, btw), because looking back I realize that I really could have used the explanations of being transmale and being aspie (both of them) to stop people blaming me for "willfully" being asocial, antisocial, overaggressive & territorial, stubborn, ungracious, self-absorbed, over-reactive, etc. Though again, they might have just tried all the harder to condition me out of it, given the decade. So I had to deal with people assuming that I was neurologically normal-superior (academically gifted) but had a really crappy attitude around other people that needed to be fixed/guilted/etc. out of me. Serves me right for not being "disabled", I suppose....lol
I'm sure that a lot of people at aspie_trans could accuse me of not having Asperger's atall from a glance, because I'm so verbal (verbose) and don't seem to be inhibited or have trouble 'expressing my feelings' or relating to other people in a socially-normal way. I used to be a textbook introvert, and now I'm a functional extrovert, when I feel like it at least, which I think lends some credibility to the "post-traumatic wariness" idea. I'm sure that some part of me is looking for group validation ("Ooh, my own kind at last!") by sharing alot, while on the other hand I know that lack or denial of that is going to make little impression on me. Having one or two people get what I'm talking about is enough to actively hope for with that, as with many groups...quality, not quantity.
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Date: 2006-09-29 12:01 pm (UTC)Incidentally, I'm a bit on the "falling in love" thing too when there's meeting of minds, especially over the things that it's so hard to find consensus on anyhow (seeing as I haven't an advanced college degree/doctorate/anything to 'make' people listen to all these theories of mine), and that meshing and interplay is something I can't get enough of, even though it does heighten the tension when it comes to answering my mail. I have found a mate at long last (that'd be Litharriel), but incidentally we are both open/poly-minded as well, in the 'select circle of intimates' sort of way, body and mind both. So no worries atall on that front.
Hmm....I suppose my way of making things work really hasn't been me 'managing' it so much as slipping under the diagnostical radar until I was well out of highschool/school-"systems" and well-read enough to figure things out for myself...which has been a bit trying emotionally (I understate constantly, btw), because looking back I realize that I really could have used the explanations of being transmale and being aspie (both of them) to stop people blaming me for "willfully" being asocial, antisocial, overaggressive & territorial, stubborn, ungracious, self-absorbed, over-reactive, etc. Though again, they might have just tried all the harder to condition me out of it, given the decade. So I had to deal with people assuming that I was neurologically normal-superior (academically gifted) but had a really crappy attitude around other people that needed to be fixed/guilted/etc. out of me. Serves me right for not being "disabled", I suppose....lol
I'm sure that a lot of people at aspie_trans could accuse me of not having Asperger's atall from a glance, because I'm so verbal (verbose) and don't seem to be inhibited or have trouble 'expressing my feelings' or relating to other people in a socially-normal way. I used to be a textbook introvert, and now I'm a functional extrovert, when I feel like it at least, which I think lends some credibility to the "post-traumatic wariness" idea. I'm sure that some part of me is looking for group validation ("Ooh, my own kind at last!") by sharing alot, while on the other hand I know that lack or denial of that is going to make little impression on me. Having one or two people get what I'm talking about is enough to actively hope for with that, as with many groups...quality, not quantity.