Aureantes' Lair

And all for the sake of near-obsessive-compulsive accuracy, tryin' to be spontaneous enough to catch my own conscience......"Tell me, o quiz, what am I really?" -- yeah, like I need to take a quiz to know by now.

So, nothin' wrong with bein' a spiritual type, is there...?


But then on the other hand.....hmm, stripey........:-|

You scored as Otherkin. You are Otherkin. You identify with otherworldy beings and feel you are truly something other than human. You are only biding your time here until you can return to where you truly belong. You seek others who share your yearnings and spend your time commiserating with those you like and mocking the ones you don't. </td> Otherkin 100% Spiritualist 90% Mystic 80% Magician 75% White Lighter 60% True Alternative 60% Discordian 55% Aimless Eclectic 55% What Subversive Alternative Paradigm Are You? created with QuizFarm.com

Um, yeah.....wrong sex there, not to mention I ain't that much of an other-elitist asshole (wait...am I? :-S...). If "here" means the world of nature and material existence, I'm not too virulently against being here, or into bemoaning that "I just don't belong"......that refers to the typical "mundane" human world/social structure, 'kay? And even so.....well, it's a bit late to be complaining about landing in it again. It's a dirty job, ya know, but someone's gotta do it....:-|

Some years ago, I drew a picture in charcoal pencil on white canvas board, a naked and grieving figure with long light disheveled hair and black demon-style wings shielding its body, hands hiding its face, in something like the poses of Masaccio's Adam and Eve being driven out of Eden, for it too was being driven out, leaving in bitterness.

It hung on my bedroom wall for a long while after, as one of my favourite and most symbolic pieces -- like that crouching male figure caught startled, its body inked and wounded, white bull's-horns on its head, its features blindly masked with gold, gold overlay'd with bright fresh-blood red, barbaric and strange -- or the girl in green kirtle and hooded cloak, running up a hill into the shelter of the forest, in a hazy green overcast afternoon before the rain. Or the page of assembled b/w figure-vignettes, the same persona in different poses and states of abandon, solitude, falling, flying, rising out of a sunken grave...doubled even, split light-and-dark or twinned in sympathy, reaching out across a space of floor and tense-charged air.

All of these. But this one with my outcast angel-demon, it fell from the wall one day, when I was happy or had every right to be. Inanimate things try to tell us -- like when I was wearing my Thor's Wheel pendant and it fell off my neck, leaving just the stag's-head pentacle I'd been keeping undercover since then. The Thor's Wheel made a convenient cross, to those who would assume it -- and I had no quarrel with the concepts, either of them -- but sometimes there comes a time when one must let the assumption, no matter how harmless, fall, and claim the definite difference instead.

The picture is standing up in another corner, its action remembered now (such a telling anecdote) because I have remembered it. And yet it will not be a completed act till that outcast angel is answered and redressed (no, not like that.../:)), restored to its rightful glory.

Which requires another drawing, or painting, or two or three...fallen things must rise, must rise, must rise. Nevermind that tracery of anguished paint on the mirror there.

EAGLE or HAWK - your daemon may be some kind of bird of prey. Yours is a strong spirit, and a fierce sense of liberty. You cannot be confined. You may be shrewdly observant, and like to be aware of everything that goes on around you. You will fight fiercely for the things that are most important to you, and you are definitely a force to be reckoned with. Still, you are not vicious by nature and would prefer to be left in peace. You probably value your solitude very highly - not that you don't enjoy company, but sometimes you just need to be alone - otherwise you begin to feel caged in and
confined. You might want to take a drive on your own, just to feel the road beneath you, or to sit alone on your balcony, watching the world go by.


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*snickers* Now, as for the following...I really don't know why I got it....but that Time Lord is one hell of a sexy babe....>:)


Time Is Your Power
You have the ability to alter time.
You can go forward in time; backward in time; you can even stop time all together.


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Light Is Your Power
You use the power of light to summon powers of good.
Angels are on your side and healing powers are your speciality.


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Angels???? Moi??? Oh, bollocks....*facepalm*......