Aureantes' Lair

In probable order of applicability (at the moment at least), here are some facets of me:

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are lively, dramatic, and flamboyant. You have an outrageous personality... And you secretly resent anyone who makes you tone it down. Underneath it all, you are driven by your need for attention and acceptance. You need to feel special at all times. You are secretly jealous and occasionally insecure.

Flamboyant, yes. Dramatic, yes. Attention, yes.....approval -- depends on whose approval, don't you think...afterall, I do delight in shocking the normals....>:)

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are powerful, passionate, and dominant. You have a vision of how things should be, and you do your best to make things happen. People rely on you for your strength. You are a rock to many. Underneath it all, you aren't so sure about your passions. So many ideas spark your interest, it is hard for you to get behind a select few. However, you see indecision as a sign of weakness. So you pursue your goals full force - no matter how foolish they turn out to be.

To quote Leonardo da Vinci: "Tell me if anything ever got finished...yeah, yeah, I know, I'm ingeniously brilliant, way overcommitted and highly mercurial. Tell me about it...."

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are wise, insightful, and brilliant. Your wit is sharp and occasionally hurtful... Revealing your scorn for people with less intelligence. Underneath it all, you feel burdened by the stupidity of humanity. You know what's right in the world, but it's overshadowed by everything that's wrong. People see you as arrogant. While this is partially true, you are also very sensitive.

Mmmmmm......yeah. I do hate being ignored, don't I?...and take inordinate pleasure in my rapier wit? (is still channeling strongly from films watched within the past few days, so expect me to speak in tongues) And it is quite true -- I am most perturbed and angered by the stupidity of humanity....it really bugs me, ya know? *sigh* I left out the one about love in these results, as it was not half so true as any of the three remaining. I don't believe that I've undermined any romantic relationship through worrying about my not being "lovable" enough -- on the contrary, I've occasionally scared people away with my intensity and skills of passion, having turned their accustomed worlds upside-down. Rather intimidatingly good at that, actually....:-|

But that's an answer from yet another quiz, which I really ought to try again (a few times) for the hell of it...:-?

Not that I haven't ever been too cold for their conventions, admittedly -- I'm hardly a consistently cuddly person, psychologically.... But the rest of the time and underneath, I just wasn't what they were really looking for, or thought they wanted to find and commit to for the sake of their own personal belief-structure. Or they were a bit sick and I was a bit offended by the thought that they thought they could have me (and I'm including all manner of types in here, just in case you're wondering about the breadth of my experience...). Or they pissed me off with having too many internal issues and no capacity for maturity or honesty -- now there's a hot topic I won't touch here....

Enough of talk of love -- I have love now
and need to search no more....

I was having an urge to post some of my very-recent (and past-but-very-resonant) poetry here, but it occurs to me that I don't exactly want to do that without setting it up right, nor without making provision for the fact that I do intend to publish this stuff in proper books that one can hold in one's hand and read intimately, as books ought to be held and caressed and shared and taken to bed beneath one's pillow......so that does mean a little care is necessary, if they're to be valued rather than hastily-digested.

In my links, I have a website with some of my poetry and art and songs and costume design, as well as a portfolio/feedback group -- both called Aureantes' Realm (along w/ everything else of that name) -- there's a deviantART account too, but I haven't been there in a while to upload new things. I have recently been inspired (in a visionary way) to start typing up finished files from the longhand manuscripts running about my chambers, so there's a bit of a renaissance going on here, plus new surges of creation. The best place to have a truly exclusive view of many diverse creative things, plus updates, would be in the existing Yahell group, as there's no chance that anyone would be in the group without my approval (and hopefully the likelihood of posting responses...). Or, since that is a tad unwieldy and short on thread structure, I could set up an LJ community for the purpose of showcasing them and getting suggestions on how they ought to be published/submitted for outside publications (for example, there's a rather interesting one I wrote back in 2004 that I'd like to see if I can get in The New Yorker or something of that prominence, and I'd like to get some good opinions before sending things out).

I'm of the opinion that, seeing as "Poetry doesn't sell", I really ought to make art-books of my chapbooks, so that they have a definite high object-value as originals (or at least as much as 'zines do at fandom conventions...). Plus, that allows for them to be personalized and even include specific illustrations, colourings and ornamentation according to a client's preference, giving them both personal and collectible value. Perhaps I'll even scramble the engrav--- erm, strike that...:">>:)

Short form, drop me a comment if you have any interest atall in this subject, especially seeing as I (being lively and dramatic and flamboyant) am apparently addicted to getting attention. :-|

More attention-getting behaviour to come.