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I'm trying to decide whether I hate Dragons or not.
No, not the Hollywood-mythical firebreathing type ("I AM the lasht one!!!") and not the symbolic creature of wisdom and occult treasure, and certainly not my own birthsign in the Chinese zodiac...hell, I'm as much a Fire Dragon as they come, people. I mean....the Dragons one may occasionally meet online. You know the type? I've been lambasted by a couple of them over the years, and I'm trying to figure out now whether it was their individual personalities (deceptively easygoing but intolerant of anyone else asserting themselves?) or their "nature" that was to blame. Or just the fact that I haven't an infinite patience for being either left in the lurch or disregarded over simple requests like "Could you stop sending me joke emails/chain emails/etc., I don't find them amusing" -- or "Tell me if you're actually planning to reclaim your original char in this roleplay, 'cause I need to know and I'm the moderator of the damn thing and you've been nowhere around for months on end."
You know, simple things that you'd think I'd have every right to ask without them turning on me personally?
And I am not a person who favours stereotyping people, not even by the names they use themselves, but in this case of pondering I am inclined to wonder whether there is something there, like an ancient node beneath the surface, that just jumps out and crackles whenever you assert that you too deserve to be listened to, and that perhaps there are situations in which others should be more aware that they have to play by your rules -- not the other way around and with them bein' so damn special inside that it assumes that you have nothing, are nothing compared to them. Whether or not they have any way of knowing.
Well, guess what? -- I'm something, and someone, and many things you could never imagine, and you were shit for acting so damn high-and-mighty and superior and mysterious to me, and thinking that I could never understand anything so grand and rare as your draconic minority condition. You failed to give me the due respect and consideration you demanded for yourself -- perhaps there's a basic lack of that sense there, perhaps enough that the clannish and egocentric creatures (I'm sure we can figure out which ones I mean by general type) are fundamentally at odds with those who believe in ideals and fairness and universal principles and highfalutin' crap like that. At least so far as humans go...oh, I forgot -- you don't like that word....
*sigh* What a waste of friendships, or of friendship in general, to have this sort of attitude thrown in one's face and everything else forgotten. I'm in a mood for burning bridges, I suppose, even if not naming names, because I'm not begging anyone back into my life who walked out on me before in a ghastly huff. My life, my terms.....and I'm in a resurgently pissed-enough mood that I'd even make you crawl to get any standing with me now.
DON'T - EVER - PISS - ME - OFF!!! Honestly, how long does it take for people to realize that it's just not a good idea....?
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No, not the Hollywood-mythical firebreathing type ("I AM the lasht one!!!") and not the symbolic creature of wisdom and occult treasure, and certainly not my own birthsign in the Chinese zodiac...hell, I'm as much a Fire Dragon as they come, people. I mean....the Dragons one may occasionally meet online. You know the type? I've been lambasted by a couple of them over the years, and I'm trying to figure out now whether it was their individual personalities (deceptively easygoing but intolerant of anyone else asserting themselves?) or their "nature" that was to blame. Or just the fact that I haven't an infinite patience for being either left in the lurch or disregarded over simple requests like "Could you stop sending me joke emails/chain emails/etc., I don't find them amusing" -- or "Tell me if you're actually planning to reclaim your original char in this roleplay, 'cause I need to know and I'm the moderator of the damn thing and you've been nowhere around for months on end."
You know, simple things that you'd think I'd have every right to ask without them turning on me personally?
And I am not a person who favours stereotyping people, not even by the names they use themselves, but in this case of pondering I am inclined to wonder whether there is something there, like an ancient node beneath the surface, that just jumps out and crackles whenever you assert that you too deserve to be listened to, and that perhaps there are situations in which others should be more aware that they have to play by your rules -- not the other way around and with them bein' so damn special inside that it assumes that you have nothing, are nothing compared to them. Whether or not they have any way of knowing.
Well, guess what? -- I'm something, and someone, and many things you could never imagine, and you were shit for acting so damn high-and-mighty and superior and mysterious to me, and thinking that I could never understand anything so grand and rare as your draconic minority condition. You failed to give me the due respect and consideration you demanded for yourself -- perhaps there's a basic lack of that sense there, perhaps enough that the clannish and egocentric creatures (I'm sure we can figure out which ones I mean by general type) are fundamentally at odds with those who believe in ideals and fairness and universal principles and highfalutin' crap like that. At least so far as humans go...oh, I forgot -- you don't like that word....
*sigh* What a waste of friendships, or of friendship in general, to have this sort of attitude thrown in one's face and everything else forgotten. I'm in a mood for burning bridges, I suppose, even if not naming names, because I'm not begging anyone back into my life who walked out on me before in a ghastly huff. My life, my terms.....and I'm in a resurgently pissed-enough mood that I'd even make you crawl to get any standing with me now.
DON'T - EVER - PISS - ME - OFF!!! Honestly, how long does it take for people to realize that it's just not a good idea....?
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